Hey, I met this Canadian girl on online dating site. (FYI, I’m 24, she’s 31 and we’re both bisexual)
Anyway, that’s not the problem. When I first met her, I never thought I’d fall for her. Cause I’m not into blondes(no offense). But at the end of the conversation, I found myself attracted to her.
On our second date, we went to the bar. Yeah we got drunk, I was over at her place and we ended up having sex. In the morning, she and I woke up, I told her that I had to leave. Then she hold my hands, kissed, cuddled me and said “Do you really wanna go?” stuff like that. But I had to leave. (It may sound strange, but after that day she started not to text me first.)
Anyway, I went to her place last weekend. We spent all afternoon making out and cuddling each other. We looked into each others eyes and said things like “You’re so beautiful”, “Your eyes are beautiful.”
But from that day, I haven’t heard anything from her.. Yeah, no texts, no phone calls. When my phone rings, I turn my phone on to find out if it’s her, but I end up being disappointed. I know.. It’s a problem.
Actually I was like “If someone likes me, great. But if not, there are plenty more out there like them.” kind of person, you know? But now… I can’t. Cause I’ve never felt like this before.
YES. I’m the one who is more falling for her, but I can’t show everything I feel about her… Maybe you guys don’t understand why I am so sensitive to all this things. But it’s because that I knew she’s a psychotherapist, so I think that she can analyze what I’m thinking. It’s a little bit scary. (Plus, when I was at her house, I asked her that why I don’t wanna leave. Then she told me “It’s because of Oxytocin.” …REALLY? OXYTOCIN?!! DAMN IT)
Phew.. It’s been four days since we texted and there isn’t any text or phone call so far.. Is she not calling me because she has no interest in seeing me again? or Is she playing with my feelings or what?
I just can’t stop thinking about her. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. Do you think that I’m overreacting about this? I can’t read her minds..
I can’t focus on anything these days. What am I supposed to do?